Thursday, April 30, 2009

Responsibilidad. Takot. Katapangan.


Dumating na rin ang araw na kinakatakot kong mangyari. Noon, sa tuwing dadapo sa isip ko ang katotohanang maaaring maganap ito, Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko,

"Matagal pang darating yun. Hindi pa ngayon."


At ngayon nga, nandito na. Nasa harap ko na. Nagulat ako ng sobra nung nalaman ko. Hindi ako makapaniwala na eto na at kailangan ko nang harapin.

Meron pa din akong option, sabi nga nila,

"Life is a matter of choice."

Pwedeng takasan ko ito at magtago O harapin at gawin ang responsibilidad kahit kapalit pa nito ay sarili kong kahihiyan.

Pinili ko na lang na harapin ito. Sabi nga nila

"Face your fear."

kaya tinanggap ko na lang ang realidad na KAILANGAN kong gawin ito.
Sa ngayon, kahit paano, natutunan ko nang tumayo ng mag-isa.

Dumating sa punto na gusto ko nang bumitaw, umiyak at umatras. Pasalamat na lang ako at patuloy na may umaalalay sa akin. Sina Kuya Loloy, Joey, Rj, Ate Eula, Ate Apple, Ate Kitty, Bong, at Emil --- mga kasamahan ko sa simbahan. Di nila ako pinabayaan nung panahon na kailangan ko nang harapin yung responsibilidad na iiwan sa akin. Nandyan sila para suportahan ako, palakasin ang loob ko at alalayan ako sa tuwing may mali akong magagawa.
Ilang linggo na ang lumipas at ilang linngo pa ang daraan. Konti na lang. Matatapos ko din itong responsibilidad na iniwan sa akin.

Alam ko malalampasan ko din itong nasimulan ko na. Kailangan ko na lang itong tapusin.



"You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself." — Jim Rohn

Monday, April 13, 2009

Butterfly



When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way
it feels to fly


Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly